pull the trigger.

when i heard the song never had a dream come true by s club duing the concert. i broke into tears and i thought i was strong. with so much in my mind, crying was the only way i could to let it all go. i miss that Japanese girls. i miss them real bad. and cos of tx as well. this feels like crap. today's a shit day. everyone's sad. i've realized that if you said the word sad, or tell a person who is on the brink of tears not to cry, the person will start crying. do you know why? i dont know. HAHA :D anyway today is ok. kenny's friend is small, cute and matured looking. haha. i wanna go clubbing damnit. i'm going maria's place tomorrow. UGH. i dont feel like going cos i'm tired. but i want to go cos long time no talk and all. i need booze. but i'm scared i cant take it and get food poisoning AGAIN. :( dilemnas dilemnas. who know the answers to dilemnas.